victini’s blog

I also posted a similar post on haiku, but mostly in the form of a question: http://h.hatena.ne.jp/target?word=Is%20Shayatmos%20%28%22Victor%22%29%20okay%3F

Hello, this is my first post on this blog. It's not about me, but it's about a friend of mine. I joined Hatena in 2011, about 3 years after it's release, the works of so many creative minds amazed me. I submitted some stuff on there, but nothing nearly as extraordinary as the flipnotes that people had put so much time and effort into making. Yes, there were the occasional "Star Beggars" and "False Reporters" but they were somewhat easy to ignore. But after a while I was looking through the rank charts and top rated flipnotes and I eventually found "her". You are probably wondering who she is, well have you ever heard of ShayAtmos? Her name in real life is Skye, she is a very talented artist and is an amazing animator as well. She spent some of her time on Flipnote Hatena. I admired her flipnotes and eventually I stumbled upon one of her chatrooms and by my luck, she was there. I couldn't believe it, I was among one of the best flipnote creators in the world! I didn't know what to say at that moment, and eventually after I said a simple "Hi" I was a part of the whole chat. There I met many people, so many people I could hardly count! I would stay up all night just to talk to them. I met other famous creators like Pichu, EagleNebula, Skittles, Fleesveon, Afro Toad, ShinyEevee, and more! I stayed with the community for around 3 years. But eventually Flipnote Hatena closed down on May 31st 2013. All the users were scattered and some found the Hatena website while others went to Deviant Art. Luckily Skye had already been on the website even before the end, and also had a Deviant Art account as well. Things were not going too well after the end of Flipnote Hatena, many users got lost in what I would call the Hatena Exodus, a lot of artist's block was stopping people from creating anything, and unless you found a way to download every single flipnote, the flipnotes were gone, deleted forever. But at least the site had stayed up. Eventually after the end I too made an account on the website, and luckily I found about all of my friends again. Though I might never be able to communicate with them, at least I have hold of them in some way. Eventually I got busy with school work and I didn't have time for Hatena. And for a while I forgot about Hatena, it might have even been a year before it crossed my mind again. But eventually during a vacation to Ocean City Maryland, I had a reminder of Hatena, I don't know what reminded me but it hit me so hard it knocked me back onto the site. But things had really changed, for the worse seemingly. Spambots had invaded the main Haiku page with ad's and the admins abandoned the site and left the site to be bombarded by tons and tons of spam messages. I never expected it would have been so quick to be taken over. The only remaining place that was safe was the blogs, that or the hidden areas in the Hatena site which I have yet to find. But even worse, many of my friends had stopped going on and had either moved on to another site, or just quit alltogether. I was searching through my friends trying to find anyone that had been on in the past week or day. I found a few but I remembered that Skye was on the most recently from what I saw. But her profile name was changed to "Victor" and when I opened up her profile it showed a picture of some person. Her whole profile description and anything else on the profile was different than I remembered. But when I went on her Fotolife and what I saw worried me. I saw that most of her posts was her doubting herself, crying, or simply saying "Help"(http://f.st-hatena.com/images/fotolife/p/psyduck/20120107/20120107141409.png). Not only did it worry me but it made me sad, really sad. I didn't want her to be depressed because I care so much. I still care, and I will always care about her. *Sigh* I really regret not telling her that while I could, I doubt she will ever see this. Those kind of miracle only happen in movies with happy endings. Life isn't a movie.

I've stayed up all night going about this, I can't sleep until I know she is okay. I need to talk to her. If anyone is reading this, I need her to see this. I need her to know that I care.

If you are reading this Skye, I know that you might doubt yourself, but please know that I think you are the best artist in the world. And the best person I have met in my entire life. You have a great personality and a great sense of humor, I have always enjoyed being a friend of your's and I really hope you can get better. I know we might not talk nearly as much anymore but I still care about you, I always have but I never had the strength to tell you. If you ever have the chance, respond to me in whatever way you can. Thanks Skye, it's been an honor being a friend of yours.